Friday, May 20, 2011

The will of my own!


So, how's your holiday.? I hope everybody enjoy their holiday!! Entry before I'd wrote that i already quit. So maybe some of you curios, did i already got a job. ?Actually it was a cashier at one of the supermarket at my place. Not really a big supermarket, but just an ordinary one.

I know, it just a shame because i just can't stand there even for a week.!! It was really tough. Even doing practical at TNB is not though as this one. I had to worked for 12 hour everyday and they only paid me for only RM400. They will be over time each day for like 3 hours and each hour I'll be paid for RM 2 and they are no shift at all.

Actually, it was my bad because i already know about that but about the overtime i just knew it after i sign the agreement. It was a mistakes. I thought i would be able to stand there for 12 hour every day, but after a day and half, i made up my decision to quit. I don't care what the manager will say, what i know, i just tired working for 12 hours!!

This is my first experience working with a pay. Yes, it was tough, and now i really appreciate being home. Even though every day i have to do cleaning, laundry and cooking, it is more meaningful rather than working for 12 hour. Allah has show me that working to get money didn't make me happy instead i always feel stress and tired, but by helping my mom, i feel like, if i don't help her, who will. After all, maybe after this i don't have this opportunity to help my mother. So, this is the time for me to pay for all what had she done for me. Thank you mak!!


Continue study. It is other things that make me feel very stress thinking of it. Should i go for master.? Or should i just pursue Phd? It is a tough decision to make. I'd asked a lot of my friends and most of them said to go for Phd. Because it's more fast rather than taking master than Phd. My mind just mixed up with all these. But one of my friends said " just go for master. Phd is not your level yet." When i think it back what he'd said was absolutely true. Even doing degree was tough, i bet Phd is more tough rite??

So, i just made up my decision. I will go for master even though i don't get the offer yet. I already attended the interview, but still there's no answer.I know, it's a risky decision for me. But i have to believe in myself. Either master or Phd.? Phd takes about 3 years to complete, but I'd asked one of my friend, he said he has a friend who did Phd without taking master, and it takes 5 years to finish. So it just the same as you taking master then take Phd. But it all depend on the person itself. If he/she committed doing their research 3 years is not a big deal. But for me i think i just want to go step by step.

I don't care what people will say to me. Maybe some of them will say that i just miss this chance, but i have my own reason of doing that. Even though i will not get the title Dr fast, but i will not be regret one day insyaAllah. I just hope this decision is the best decision and hope Allah will bless my choice and decision.. Amin...


My disease?? It still the same. I already went to a doctor, and as usual he said I'm allergic. It is ridiculous.!! How come i get allergic everyday?? It just like i eat the same thing every day. But still the doctor insisted that i have allergic. The weird thing is that, even though i didn't get any meal on that day, they will be the same. So now what would you said? Am I still allergic to food?? Even though i didn't eat at all. hurm..Tomorrow my father will bring me to see another doctor and i hope this time, the doctor will not say, "It is allergic!". I just fade up listen to that word, because it doesn't make any sense at all..


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