Ya Allah, give me strength to face all these trials.

Assalamualaikum.

I don't know how should I start. What should I write. Everything was mixed up. Sad, disappointed, that's what I feel. I just want to cry. Because that's the only way I can do it right now. I don't have any strength to overcome this feeling. I feel very down and giving up.

Maybe some of you did know what was happened to me. I know, some would say it just a small thing and it was me that make it looks complicated to solve. But I don't care what others want to say, because it is my feeling and it was what  I have dream for a long time.

Yes, I know I'm not a brilliant student and I never been one. But everybody have their own dream that they wish one day they can get it. Same goes to me. I was struggled for about 4 years to achieve this thing. I really want to study abroad, and when I have a chance, it was me who ruined it up. I didn't pass the IELTS requirement and just managed to get band 6 whereas the requirement needs 7.

It was so frustrated. I used my own money to take the exam and I'd burden both of my parents in order to take this exam. I'm just an idiot. That what can I say. Now I don't know what should I do. Should I take the exam one more time.? I don't know. I can't make any decisions. I don't want to burden my parents more. Even now,I already give problems to them. I think I just want to giving up in further my study.

I don't have any plan B. I don't get any proper job and my contract will end soon. Yes, I'm fret. Most of my friends have been employed. Some can even buy a car. Me? Even go to work, my father sends and pick me up. I don't know how my life gonna be. Ya Allah give me strength. 

To my friend Nurita, thanks for your support. I really appreciated that. 

Ya Allah make it easier for me.

Assalamualaikum.



I don't really have the mood to write anything in my blog. That's why it has been left without any new entry. I'm having a hard time right now. Many thing come across my mind. The first thing is getting a new job.



Yes, I already have a job actually and still working as a teacher and it has been 2 months I became a teacher. But, I want to change a job. A better job. Because I need money. Not really desperate but yes I really need it!!



But maybe, luck is not by my side. I had attend 2 interviews, intel and proton. Both companies don't even give me feedback. Maybe it is not for me. God knows what the best. And I always pray I'll get a job that will not make it difficult for me or to my family. Maybe one day, God will answers my dua'. Insyaallah.



Currently, I'm in my process to do master. But there're a lot of problems. I need to register the IELTS exam. It is cost around RM 570 not include the books. Additional RM120 for books..That's why I need money.I work as a teacher using my spm, the salary is based on the day you are working. Means, holiday no pay.



I just hope the application process will run smoothly, so does the exam. Ya Allah make it easier for me.. This is the only chance I have this time. I'm looking towards it. Friends, pray for me. If I got offer from the university, insyaallah by next year I will be doing master there.. Insyaallah.



p/s: My scholarship will only be approve once I get place at the university.It is either Harvard or Johns Hopkins.

Wasalam

I'm gonna visit this place one day.Insyaallah

Assalamualaikum..

Yesterday, i just went to Jitra with my friend to watch Nur Kasih The Movie. The movie was quiet good. But what most attracted me was the places in the movie itself. The movie was filmed in Jordan. I never thought that Jordan has this amazing places to visit. God has created a very fascinating places in Jordan. Yes, one day i absolutely will visit Jordan. Insyaallah. No more Sydney...hehehhe

Thanks to Mr Google for the pictures!

The last and 2nd last picture are amazing, so thus in the movie. Just go and watch nur kasih the movie. You will definitely fall in love with Jordan!!

Wasalam

Doa mempermudahkan urusan

"Ya Allah, tidak ada kemudahan kecuali sesuatu yang Engkau permudahkan, Engkau menjadikan kedukaan itu mudah sekiranya Engkau kehendaki"

Master or Phd?

Assalamualaikum.

What should i choose.? What is the best for me.? Ya Allah show me the way.

p/s: i just quit!!

Thank You Allah

Assalamualaikum.


Alhamdulillah. Terlalu banyak rezeki yang Tuhan bagi kat aku sampai kadang - kadang aku terpikir, layak ka aku untuk semua ni.? Apa-apa pun alhamdulillah. Peluang seumur hidup yang aku tak pernah terpikir.

It's still not confirm yet. Many procedures are needed before i can I achieve 'this' thing. I just hope i can perform well in my final semester. I just hope for the best.

Kalau tuhan dah tentukan ini rezeki aku alhamdulillah and kalau ini hanyalah ujian semata-mata, tetap alhamdulillah. Sebab, tuhan dah beri sedikit kenikmatan kepada aku. Walaupun sedikit, alhamdulillah.

"Ya Allah, andai ini yang terbaik yang telah Engkau tetapkan buatku, permudahkanlah segala urusanku. Jikalau ini ujian yang kau turunkan buat hamba seperti aku, aku redha. Jadikanlah aku antara hamba - hambamu yang sentisa bersyukur apabila mendapat nikmat dariMu dan jadikanlah aku antara hamaba - hambamu yang sentisa bersabar bila ditimpa sesuatu ujian. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui"

Everything happens come with a good reason!

Assalamualaikum

I'm feeling really stress right now. Many bad things, not really bad actually but something that I'm not comfortable with happen to me lately.

FYP??? That makes me even more stress. One of my friend in her process of doing her technical paper and me, will attend an appointment with my sv this evening. I hope everything will going well. Hopefully.

I become more stress when my external hard disk, the new one(i have two actually) make a problem..i just bought it 3 months and now it giving me a problem. so i send it back. luckily i have a 3 years warranty. I hope my HD will be OK. Hopefully.

Mine,the white one!

And last 2 days, I'm not sure, Intel called me. Yes!It's Intel. Actually they had called me several times but i didn't pick up since I'm not alert with my phone. Back to the call. They call for an interview actually. Everything going well at first until then he asked we, where do i work. So i replied, I'm still studying and will be graduate on may. Then after a few minutes conversation he said he will call me back later.

It's a bit frustrating cause I now he didn't really read my resume since i have stated there I'll graduate on May. But it's okay, because I'm not really into it. I know a lot of people want to work at company such Intel, me too but not really looking towards it. My mum said, don't look to the pay, but choose what you like and what makes you happy.

She's right, maybe God will give me a better chance next time. Who knows right.?? I believe god has a really better plan, that's why i didn't get the interview. Okay.Bye.

Am I giving up?

Salam

There will be one time you will feel of giving up. That happens to me. Being an engineering student just make me feel stress. And now I'm feeling of giving up at the end of semester. All because of my final year project. I really hope i can finish this project. But it's not as easy as you think. Programming's one of my weakness, but i try my best. I keep practicing, ask everybody, but what i get just like 3/10 of the solution. And now I'm stuck and i feel really tired with all this programming. But i have no choice, i have to finish the project otherwise I'll extend my semester.

Thanks to my friends that always give me support and wishes me luck. Friends, please pray for me :)




Wasalam

Final exam semester 7

Salam

"Ya Allah, permudahkanlah setiap urusanku dan perkenankanlah segala doaku"

Saya akan menempuh final exam pada

23/10 - Power System 2

1/11 - Power Utilization

7/11 - Business Management

10/11 - Power Electronic

Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan. Friends, wish me luck. I really need to perform well in this final exam...

Wasalam

Semoga jalan yang aku pilih ini, jalan yang kau redhai.

Salam

Dah pukul 1 pagi, tapi rasa macam nak menulis.Tiba-tiba rasa nak ubah 'sesuatu' dalam blog ni. Ya, perubahan tu amat penting dalam hidup kita sebagai manusia dan juga sebagai hamba Allah di muka bumi ini. Kadang2 perubahan tuh kecik, tapi tetap jugak perubahan. semoga perubahan yang cuba kita lakukan itu adalah perubahan ke arah kebaikan. Panjang pulak tulis...Sebenarnya nak tukar kata ganti diri 'aku' kepada 'saya'. Since my blog is also using 'saya' sebagai kata ganti diri..

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Pernah tak kamu semua terpikir sesuatu yang macam ni :

"Betul ka apa yang aku pilih ni?"

Saya tau, mesti ramai yang pernah terpikirkan hal tersebut. Begitulah juga dengan diri ni sendiri. Setelah 7 semester bergelar pelajar kejuruteraan elektrik, tiba-tiba terpikir "eh!betul ka apa yang aku amik ni??" Bila terpikir ja macam tuh, terus rasa takut, sebabnya takut apa yang selama ni kita kejarkan, bukanlah sebenarnya apa yang kita nak.

Saya sendiri tak pasti dengan apa yang saya nak. Time sekolah dulu, tak pernah langsung terpikir suatu hari akan belajar engineering. Tapi itulah yang telah saya lakukan selama 3 tahun setangah saya disini. Dan saya rasa cukup bertuah kerana selama 7 sem disini, saya berjaya mendapat anugerah dekan pada setiap semester.

Tapi itu bukanlah kayu pengukur sama ada saya betul2 telah memilih jalan yang betul. Tapi bila saya pikirkan balik, saya ingat lagi, sebelum saya apply untuk program engineering, saya dah buat solat istikharah, dan saya percaya Allah sentiasa menyediakan yang terbaik untuk hambanya. Saya percaya!!

So, now i believe that i'm in the right path. Maybe the stressful environment forced me to think in a such way.

"Ya Allah, semoga jalan yang aku pilih ini adalah jalan yang kau redhai di dunia dan akhirat. Semoga ianya membawa kebaikan kepadaku dan juga orang lain."

Wasalam